thingsareworkingrightforme.thingsarenotworkingrightforme

we have lost the connection we had.
time
season
friends
people
have changed and its only me who is in the same situation.is it just an illusion that everything will be alright? will everything fall back into its place? 
all i see is happy faces
happy sacrifices. but is even mine worth it? will it result as i have expected or shall it all fall into its places but cracked?
this lonesome feeling that i have right now cannot be described. i have everything. i feel like i don't need anything else. but yet i feel lost in this strange world and this strange place.should i have the urge to feel the need of something in my life?  i was happy until just now but then something hit me to make me feel so unhappy, so sad and alone, i don't know. until when should i fight against these feelings? somebody help me, I am so lost!zzzzzzzzZZZZzzzZZZzz


x
stupid feelings

Misses....

Tears tears and more tears for my friends an integral part of my life, i miss you guysso badly much ! 

History

Man proposes, God disposes!
Thus, the love that once seemed so promising has started to fade away. Exciting and promising love is now all in the history.
i want to cry out so loud that everyone can hear it ...the feelings that i have been hiding in order to pose as a strong person, i wanna cry them out so loud!!

Marry Me

Right!!  so this is a song by Train" Marry me" .
My future husband, no matter wherever you are, i want you to know that you should sing this song and propose me .LOL..way dramatic, i knw!!! anyways its a lovely song  for my future husband "marry me" :)




love
xxx

one man army

Its Nepal bandh, sucks
and i am stuck here at my aunt's place in Boudha doing nothing but sleeping until 1 pm, eating, pooping, trying to watch a movie in youtube which, by all the effort, works real slow. My cell phone battery is drained and i have no connection to the outer world , by outer world i mean my friends. i have closed my facebook account and i am happy the way i am. 
when did i become like this? i used to be the one who loved crowds, loved meeting new people, loved making new friends and all. But right now i am ok with the way i am; secluded from the outer world but not hoping that soon enough i might turn myself into a one man army...
So its raining outside and i reminisce the POkhara times with my cousins :( 
i wish i could go on a vacation again but i have done nothing to earn a vacation. 

one man army re!!

tanned in pkr

and this is me again going TOTALLY out of topic yet AGAIN!!!!!

🆒

LOST
i feel lost. I dont know. These days i dont worry much, i just go with the flow.i am content but i am lost.i dont know what i want and what i need. I just relax and the idea of relaxing and going with the flow isn't getting along with my physique.i am gaining weight.
Before i used to be underweight and i wished i gained a lil weight. Now due to this phase of more-than-wanted relaxation, my weight too is overrelaxed. And no i an not bitchly moaning about my weight, but i had jut asked for a tad bit upliftment of the number in the weighing machine. Why can we not get what we ask for accurrately and must there be some distorts in our fulfilment of wishes?
Well this is me being unreasonable and also drifting out of what i wanted to write. The weight issue always pulls us girls' mind, i guess??!!
Now that i have wandered off to a topic i had not intended to write about, i might as well call it a night. So yea i am just relaxed but i know i am lost.I am out of touch with my friends and i have to start revising for my finals, should start thinking about future career, work, relationship troubles. There are so many and i am lost amidst all these but yet i am chilled. Whyy?? Whats happening with me?? Maybe procrastinating re k.jpai! Zzzzz
Zzz nights folks!

Early bird???

Its 9.45am and i just woke up.damn whats wrong w.me?? I sleep so lste and i wake up so late. I dont feel sleepy early.wtf is wrong w.me???? I need to sleep early and wake up early.